Update: I’m a ball of stress.

Life has been so busy at the minute. And not so much in the good way. Partly in the good way, but at the same time I spread so incredibly thin right now, and I’m really sad that I haven’t updated since last Sunday.

I mean the last time I updated, this wasn’t even out yet:

I did not tear up and freak out at all. That’s a complete lie, I watched it and then bought tickets to go to the midnight premiere because it’s gonna be great. I’m classing ‘great’ as better than the prequels. Let’s be real, that isn’t gonna be hard when you have the original cast, the amazing new cast (Gwendoline Christie could stand in silence for 2 hours and you’d still find me starting a hashtag for her to receive an Oscar) and J.J. Abrams.

I had an incredibly great weekend, I travelled to Birmingham, a city I have somehow never been to before, to celebrate one of my best friend’s 21st birthday! That was so much fun, and then the next day I went to a Halloween party that I have been to every year for the past three now! And I had an incredible time there too.

Plus I was dressed as Han Solo and that was so much fun, this is my favourite costume that I’ve ever made/worn:

I need to do a whole post on that bloody belt, it was not easy to make and it’s still not completely accurate. I had the best time putting this costume together, it was surprisingly hard to find all of the things for it, but I loved it.

Plus this weekend will be fun, as it’s Halloween, one of my favourite holidays!

However it’s the 5 days in between the weekends that are killing me at the minute. I know third year of uni is hard, it’s supposed to be hard, it’s degree level and it’s the end of the degree, on no planet is that going to be easy. And if there is a planet where that is easy, someone let me know when the next space bus (also known as a rocket) is leaving the station.

Law is a notoriously hard thing to study, and I am truly feeling it right now. The best way to describe it is that I am paddling so hard and so much yet I’m somehow stuck with water up to my neck. It’s taking all of my effort to stay that much afloat. The key thing is that I am staying afloat right now. I have the capability to do it, and I am, so I’m happy about that, and I have been doing all of the work I have to, and all of the work I want to. I just sometimes long to be that student who lies in bed and watches daytime TV all day, though I know that isn’t me. That could’ve been me in first year when it didn’t count towards my degree but I still worked my ass off, however I did spend almost every Wednesday afternoon watching old Daily Grace videos. It’s such a shame some company makes money off of those videos now.

This was more just to get a few things off of my chest rather than to write a stellar blogpost, as this truly is not that. And also to be a ‘hey i’m still alive just my degree is taking all of my effort right now, and I’m a little bummed I put a lot of effort into getting a job at a place I really love and fell at the last hurdle and didn’t get the job, but that’s life! Things happen for a reason and all that jazz. Plus losing out on that job means that I’ll be able to spend more time with my friends and family over the next 8-10 weeks or whatever.

Thanks for putting up with me and my constant lulls when life gets too much, and for sticking with me on my continuous journey to being able to balance my blog, YouTube, and 3D world commitments.

Seeing people reading my blog even when I’ve not been posting on it or promoting it really makes me happy everyday, so thank you all for that. I would put all the heart emojis here if I could.

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